There was this friend in the family
Who always came around
He’d make the kids smile
Whenever they began to frown
He was so damn cool
He was so damn nice
He was so damn handsome
And oh so polite
One day this friend in the family
Gave me a wink
I was in so much shock
I could barely think
Am I going crazy?
That might be so
Fantasia, calm down
It was nothing, let it go
This friend in the family started giving me money
Buying me candy
And calling me honey
I had no guidance
So naive and lost
Wanting to make a friend
No matter the cost
“He wouldn’t hurt a fly”
That’s what everyone would say
But this friend in the family
Tried to rape me one day.
I became a recluse
Always stayed inside
Because on that very tumultuous day
A part of me died
A few cousins took notice
Asked what was wrong
But I kept saying “nothing”
While pretending to be strong
The more time passed
The weaker I became
His presence around my family
Was driving me insane
Who would be next
If he couldn’t get to me
A predator like him
Shouldn’t be free
I finally spoke up
Told my cousins about that day
They were definitely in shock
But brushed what happened away
Acted as if it never happened
So he still came around
The very few I trusted
Had certainly let me down
I guess it wasn’t a big deal
Maybe I should be more vibrant
And when he sexually assaults me again
I should just remain silent.
Fantasia Alston is a guest writer for theblackertheberry.org. She is a 22 year old free spirit and visionary who spends most of her time writing poetry, reading (preferably mystery books), and doing whatever she can to help better the community, whether it be volunteering at the nearest homeless shelter or picking up any litter found on the solid surface of the Earth. She also enjoys painting whatever comes to mind, cooking, meditating, and taking long walks to nowhere. She currently resides in Columbia, SC. She is a writer for #SCHOOLGIRLHUSTLE, an organization that supports and empowers girls and women to stay in school. Learn more about her and her work here. Follow her on instagram here.