For the nights when our love don’t love us back.
The heaviest burden
The most urgent concern
Is when tears burn your face from the words of others because
The worst sounds come from sobs in pillows smothered with covers undercover
Doused in brokenheartedness
The hurt that our mothers vowed to protect us from
The heaviest burden
When you feel like a burden
unwanted and unappreciated
Don’t you hate it?
When somebody rather drag you out like last night’s trash just because
You and your crown are too heavy to lift?
But don’t you hate it even more when
You put your own self in that trash bin?
The heaviest burden
When you feel sorry for yourself and
You start to tear yourself down just like everyone else did
As if they really needed help with it
You take in the words and you start to believe
The alibis and the lies
Against your spirit
You can see you falling out of love with yourself so loud and so clear you can hear it
A car crash, a tree fall, a falling apart
Damn, it wasn’t like that from the start
Damn, has an artist ever been more dismissive of her own work
Of her own art?
The shit is taught. And she listened.
The heaviest burden
The rising from the fire
The guilt of a liar that
Only lies to herself
She needs some help she
Needs some medical attention
Did I mention that wounds cut the deepest
From self inflicted
Injury?
Well tell me where to start because
The heaviest burden is me
Somebody tell me where to start because
The burden is too heavy
Dr. Kiara Shanay Lee 