I look at the pictures
afro puff pigtails: her innocence, her take-over-the-world attitude
tucked in some overall denim blues and Reebok classic shoes
a little black girl in her own little black girl world
she is confident
she is fearless
she is loved
but time has passed and so has she
rest In peace little black girl
I look at the woman before me
her weary big brown eyes with lines
aged with disappointment and distrust
her too tight dress because tight isn’t tight enough
her half smile, her crooked mask
so crooked, it’s falling
she is vulnerable
she is doubtful
but she is still loved
the mirror uncovers the lies
she tries and she tries
to cover up
but her dress is too small and her mask
unveiling for all to see
the things she wish she could’ve hid
she longs for her
the little girl
the little kid
and her Afro puff pigtail attitude
as her mind suffocates from her grown lady wig
oh how we play pretend
when the grown woman wants to be a little girl again
this grown woman, playing with real life and make-up and men
can’t wait to grow up and be a kid
Weekly Wisdom: Don’t Try to Figure it Out
People have funny ways. People are especially funny, to me, when they treat others badly for no apparent reason.
The lady that works in a restaurant glares at you angrily during your entire visit. Someone at your job doesn’t want to work with you. An acquaintance or family member always feels the need to “one-up” you in any and every given conversation. It bothers you, and you find yourself time and time again questioning things.
Then you start second guessing yourself. “Am I coming off a certain type of way to bring such behavior on?” you may ask yourself. “Is it something that I did in the past to warrant such mistreatment?” you may ponder.
But for real for real, you’re putting yourself through way too much trouble. I’m finding out that this world is full of people FULL of hang-ups. They’ve got their own problems, whether they include jealousy, insecurity, stereotypical points of view or other things that have NOTHING to do with you. Why try to question yourself? YOU don’t have to answer to these people. Truth is they question you because they truly question THEMSELVES.
I’ve found myself at this place time and time again – coming across someone with a stank attitude and trying to figure out their problem. And I’ve learned time and time again that it’s a waste of time. So I urge you, don’t try to figure it out. Some people will roll their eyes because the sky is blue, while others let a door slam in your face because of the color of your skin. It’s all nonsense and more times than not, it has absolutely nothing to do with you.
Misery loves company – so don’t ever accept the invite!
Peace, Love & Consciousness